We went to Boomers! today, which is basically Family Fun Center renamed, which is basically a small amusement park. I guess today was their grand-reopening, but Xab and I were planning to go anyway because we never take my bro out anymore and though we like hanging around each other just by ourselves we kinda felt bad that my brother rarely sees the world outside the house or the school bus. So, today they had a $5 all day all play offer and my friends were planning to go so we tagged along.

It pissed me off. $5 and we only got to ride the go karts because there was so many people. We stood in line for at least an hour to ride the go karts for about three minutes. I realized that we don't belong at Boomers! It's mostly a young teenager hangout, where twelve year olds smoke cigarettes and people live up to their stereotypes. It was really stupid to see the future acting like absolute morons.

Well, we got to ride the go karts. I was really annoyed so I was really competitive in racing. I only overtook one car though. After that someone came and rammed me into the wall. After that, the attendant took like five minutes to get to me. Xab passed by me while I was waiting, mocking me. I caught up to him but he's such a slow road hog that I couldn't pass him or get anywhere.

I was little worried about my brother. He didn't get to drive the same round as us so he had to drive alone. Then, he wanted to go into the batting cages. But he did pretty good. My brother's a tad bit physically handicapped but he did alright. I should stop worrying about him and remember that he's a big boy now. I think that's what scary. He's growing up. I'm still a little used to babying him and protecting him and I'm pretty sure that's not what he needs. I don't want him to be a spoiled, dependent brat. I want him to be 'normal' whatever the heck that is. I don't want people seeing him as 'the crippled kid'. I want them to see him as a person and I want them to treat him that way so he can grow up without so much grief.

I'm back home. I go home a lot this quarter. Sometimes, I really don't want to because it's a lot better now that I have more friends in the dorm. It was really hard going home and then coming back knowing that I didn't have a support group at school. My only source of support was through instant messages and telephone calls and sometimes it wasn't enough. It really was hell just trying to get through a miserable week without anyone. But now, I have more loyal friends at school and I actually feel the opposite feeling about coming home. I don't want to go. Then, again, I don't like my roommate. I wish I didn't let just one person ruin all my fun but she does. I try not to think about her. My situation with her is past reconciliation. I've had enough of pride swallowing and giving in. We don't even talk anymore. People say that walking into our room when both of us are in there is like walking through an electrical field. There is just so much tension. I don't really feel the tension anymore. I've taught myself to pretend that she isn't in the room.

Anyway, before Xab and I left the dorms we played a couple rounds of Guesstures with my dorm friends. Xab and I made a pretty good, almost to the point of cheating since I made some gestures that only Filipinos would understand. What really tripped my friends out was when I had to act out the word 'model'. I really didn't want to but we were really behind and we needed more points. So I tried acting like a model and all Xab could say was "sexy?" I was almost rolling on the floor, my friends too, but I had to keep on charading because of the time. Xab, all that time, was just confused.

We came home and found my mom watching the Miss America pageant which is something beyond my understanding but whatever.

3/1/2002 12:40:18 PM

What a long, interesting day, yesterday. Xab came to visit me again. We went to my psychology class, which was really boring. I don't even remember what he was talking about. Something about thinking. Anyway, after that we went to watch Dragonfly, which I thought would be like The Mothman Prophecies. They both have bug titles, a wife who dies in a vehicle accident and strange sightings/hearings. It turns out that is really stinks. Lame dialogue, predictable 'suspense' scenes and just boring. If you ever want to see a movie about some dead wife's wandering spirit and strange phenomenon, just don't see Dragonfly.

Afterwards, we wandered around Irvine Spectrum Center for a while. Don't ever eat there. The food is gross but it's a nice place to hang out. It has a very Arabian look.

Well, that computer research exam was *blah*! Darn pivot tables. It really isn't that hard. I just don't get it. Anyway, I missed at least twenty points which means at most I can get 80%. That's okay. Hopefully, the professor wasn't lying when she said that the exam didn't really count for much.

This is really funny. I exceeded my bandwidth at tripod. Oops. Anyway, Xab and I (well, mostly me) are thinking about getting a domain for our upcoming online project. But that'll be a couple months (or never at all). I'm familiarizing myself with this whole domain hosting/registration business but can someone just make it easy for me and point me to a good, fair-priced host that two poor college students can afford? =P Thanks!

2/27/2002 03:11:52 PM

Ahh, finally got the comment code to fit in the html. I really suck at this html stuff. Well, I don't suck at it. I'm just really slow at it. Again, there goes another wasted hour of my life. I'm not even sure if I want to keep the comments because it kind of makes the journal impersonal now. Hmm, oh well. Now off to my computer research exam! Yay!

Damn dorm food. I have a stomach ache again. Sometimes I wonder if dorm housing is really genocide for freshman students. Dirty bathrooms, evil roommates, grade F food; they're trying to kill us off and take our money. I once figured out the logic behind bad food. At lunch or breakfast, the food is crap. You lose your appetite just smelling the food so you don't eat as much. Come dinner, you're hungrier than usual because you didn't that much for lunch or breakfast so you're more willing to eat crap. Except they aren't serving crap food tonight, they're serving crappier food to curb off your appetite. Why would they do this? I don't know. Less effort, probably, for the cooking staff. I abandoned that logic and simply came to the conclusion that they're simply trying to kill us.

Ooh, on a sidenote, it turns out that my roommate didn't steal my toothpaste. It was just up on my closet where I forgot all about it. Now, I feel dumb for secretly blaming her for the missing toothpaste and for rationing my dwindling tube of toothpaste for two weeks. It's good to know that she really isn't dense enough to take my bathroom utilities. Maybe, my extra cell phone battery, my earpiece, my milano cookies, three cans of vienna sausage, chocolate sticks, ramen and several breakfast bars and pouches of capri sun will also turn up too. Probably not, because she already digested it... but I'm still hoping on that battery and earpiece because that really pisses me off that someone might have taken it.

2/25/2002 07:42:47 PM

I feel unopinionated. I don't think I can take a stand. Why? Maybe I don't care. Or I don't know. Or I just can't decide. Or maybe all but I don't think I have any opinions. Maybe I do but I never stand up and voice it because I really don't care I guess. I wish I was, really. I hope that one day I can take a stand for something. I don't know what it is. I think it's because I can see things from all directions. You can see things from all directions and you know that there is no 'right' or 'wrong'. There are just decisions. Maybe I just don't know enough to make a decision about an issue. It's not like I want to be a radical activist or something (but what fun that would be) I just wish I stood for something instead of just being some regular nobody in society.